Thursday, December 8, 2011

Sorry

I have to rant again. I hate it when I send emails and texts to so many people and then they don't reply. People on the cool list right now:
Chelsea
Heather
Dr. C.
Sylves
parentals
Charla
That means all the rest of the people I have emailed and texted in the last 2 days either hate me or don't care about what I do. And that hurts. It really hurts. I know I shouldn't let it get to my self esteem but when it is such a common occurrence (trust me, it is) it makes me wonder, you know? I sometimes try to blame it on my phone... but that only helps so much, when I still get contact from other people using the same device.

Now let me try to balance out my attitude.... I can be happy because:
I don't have to get up early anymore
I'm going to CA next week
I have internet!!
I have a cute haircut
I got asked to do something on the organ for Sunday
I get to play with post-it notes now... no, really, that's what I'm going to do right now, and get at least one paper over with!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Hello December, we love you too

Fun story coming soon...

Small rant

Have I mentioned before how much I dislike flakey people? Yup, I still do. An example: person receives an assignment for a group project. Person leads me on to believe she will do said assignment on time. Deadline for said assignment getting super close, still not done. Me and some others are working on a different assignment for said project, up until 11:45 doing so. Other member of group asks if the other assignment was done yet. I say I don't think so. Other member offers to do it. Other member stays up even later doing it. Next day we find out, first member decided to go to bed when she got home from work.

Related example: Group member volunteers to do a certain assignment (for the same group project), a month and a half before it's due. Never hear from him about it again. Week before due-date: assignment reassigned to the same person. 2 days before due date: group meeting held, said member did not attend. Other member volunteers to do it. Later that night, first member says he did it and will email it. Next day: email received from second member, none from first member.

I think the moral of those stories is to do your group assignments when you have them. Or at least tell someone in your group what's really going on. if you think I'm talking about you, I still like you as a person but it really hurt that you didn't follow through. I am grateful that there are some really awesome people that stepped up to help get our project done. To those people, I am so glad to know you. Thank you for being extra responsible.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Ode To Distraction

So, here I am, yet again, unable to work on my papers but perfectly capable of using the internet. Blah. I want to do it this time, I do, but I'm just a bit distracted by the events of a few nights ago and ensuing dialogues. It's all I can think about. It's all anyone can talk about. And it's distracting. Let me elaborate.

First, imagine Ode to Joy. Now imagine a loud moaning/crying sound interjecting every 5 seconds. Annoying, right? Right. So now I'll tell you what happened. Last Sunday was an orchestra concert at WSU. We played Beethoven's Symphony No. 9 (I got to play the triangle!). It's a pretty big deal in case you don't know--only thing on the program cuz it lasts over an hour. 75 person orchestra, 100 person chorus, 4 soloists, and the audience was full (1200 people) and of course it was to be recorded. Here's the scene as I experienced it from the back of the stage: the conductor was about to begin the final movement (literally he was already swinging the baton) and there comes a cry from the audience. He stops, puts down the baton, a little angrily, and turns around and says "Bye," obviously indicating that the offending child be removed. No one leaves. He waits for a while, turns back around, waits for a while, mutters stuff that only the 1st chair players can hear, and after realizing that they aren't going to leave he begins the movement really.

After a few minutes the cry was heard again. All of us on stage heard it, were annoyed, but kept going. Then it came again. Annoyed, yes. And again. A few times. These were about 5-10 seconds apart. Once the music settled into the Ode To Joy theme for the first time--it's a lovely delicate place--the cry was heard again and the conductor cut off the music, slammed down his baton again, and turned around to the audience. He said something about children not being allowed and that he was sorry but they shouldn't have been admitted. No one moved again but I was told later that another professor out in the audience approached the source of the noise. Someone yelled "they're handicapped" and then the audience was all disturbed. They either finally left or were escorted out but some other people talked back and left too. Conductor says we will begin the 4th movement again and we do, but the players are a bit flustered and mess up a difficult part so we start it one more time. Then we get to finish up the whole thing, I get to play my triangle part, and it was amazing and fun. I had put the incident out of my mind, it was more important that I had just been a part of the real and entire Ode to Joy by Ludwig van Beethoven!

So that was the events. It's all anyone can talk about at school. I wrote the conductor a thank you email for letting me be a part of Beethoven's 9th. Now, I just found out today that a news article about it had been posted on a reputable news website. I read it and was utterly shocked to see it was a one-sided piece about how one person was offended that they would throw out a mentally handicapped person. Then the more-than-100 comments on the story. Most were completely uninformed. I've gotten more facts bit by bit from multiple first-hand sources, and the people associated with the disruptive audience member had been told to leave multiple times before the conductor did it himself.

So why did the conductor "cause a scene?" It is not his arrogance, nor insensitivity to the handicapped, nor pride, nor attentiveness to etiquette, nor anything else related to him. It is clearly the guardian of the handicapped individual. If you have been asked to leave for being disruptive, and you don't, it is extremely rude. You don't get a pass just because of a handicap. You are not exempt from concert etiquette, and to that guardian, what kind of example does that set to other children when you don't do as directed, and then talk back? That disgusts me. I don't hate handicapped people, but a handicap is not a free pass to be disruptive at a concert, ESPECIALLY after someone has asked you to leave.

I don't think I conveyed why I am so distracted. It's partly my disgust at the news for reporting in such a way as to make people think less of my school which is the best in the world at some things. Partly my disgust with society for arguing about whether or not it is appropriate to ask someone to leave a classical concert when they are being disruptive because of a handicap. Partly my worry about how far people will go to get back at the conductor because they disagree with him about having a quiet audience while recording Beethoven's 9th Symphony. Some of the other students started organizing other ways to show our appreciation to the conductor which I heartily joined. But there's not much else I can do, so why can't I freakin' concentrate and write my papers?

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

How does this work...

I can help others with their homework but can't do my own.

I can do extra assignments but not the original ones.

What's my freakin' problem?!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

The 2 things that I do

I like Science. I like Music. This was a god weekend for both.

Friday I went to one music class but most of the day I was preparing for and helping out at the Physics Open House. Which was super fun! As usual! I got to make about 9 batches of different kinds of play-dough, then they fed us pizza, then I got a free t-shirt (with a frictionless student on it--not to be confused with a spherical student lol), and got to spend many hours playing with helium balloons making mini-HARBOR models :-). We also had a flying shark, which we used to rescue some escaped helium balloons, then the inevitable happened: we re-enacted an XKCD comic:



It was so good. The only downside to this was that I was occupied until 9:30pm and so we couldn't go to the homecoming dance :-(

More especially since I had to get up before 5:30 the next day. Saturday was the UMTA conference which started out with a chapter presidents meeting at 7am. Booooo. Oh well. I had plenty of time to write my speech and find everyone else before we presented our chapter thing at 10:50. It was awesome just like the last time, we played Bach and the dance professor showed the dances after the history professor gave the history and then we had the art and we all had fun. Then lunch. Then Zoe competed in the Young Artists competition. Then Fan-Ya played in a masterclass. She played a movement from Gargoyles, and this was after another guy played part of the Liszt sonata, so the masterclass teacher was just going off about hell and demons and witches the whole time and it was scary but enlightening and awesome actually, hehehehe. Then Nic competed in the competition as well. I only got to hear him through the door. Then there was a recital and Jared and CJ played. Then CJ and Eliza freaked out together on chopsticks on one of the demo pianos. Then Byron competed. He made everyone cry he was so good. He ended up getting an Honorable Mention. I can't imagine how the other winners must have been because I thought Byron did so freakin' well. Whatever.

Saturday night we slept REALLY well. Two long days of all physics and all music will put you out apparently. Wait, that's all I do every day . . . no wonder my list of things to do never gets any shorter. And here I am writing a blog. That's okay!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Forgive me

So, I know I haven't been writing much. And guess what, that probably won't change anytime soon. That's what happens when you are taking 2 years of history classes at the same time, 2 years of internship at the same time, and have 2 courses of study, and 2 jobs! I can hear the words of a friend: "don't be a hero..." but you all know I can't help it. This is my last year anyway.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Oh Boy!

Well, I guess I haven't posted for a bit. With good reason! Life has been so dang intense I have hardly had a minute to do frivolous things like update a blog.

Customs wasn't too much of a hassle, except that he was almost the last one they let out and I had to wait for an hour and a half. Grrr.

We did lots of fun stuff his first week, like visit temple square, go swimming, meet our mission president, go to work and school, and stuff.

Wedding Day 9-10-11 Best Day Ever!

We took the weekend to honeymoon in Salt Lake. People seem to have a problem with this. I tell them we went to Salt Lake and they ask when we're going to have a REAL honeymoon. WTH I just told you we had a short one in Salt Lake! Someone please enlighten me as to why that is so unacceptable?

Back to School on Monday, and work, and everything else fun since then. I just take Sylves with me everywhere and it's so much better than just being single. Sometimes I leave him at home and he'll cook or clean. Can't really (legally) do much else until we get the work permit and/or green card. That will be in process very soon.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Almost here

Remember how I said the anger would shortly pass? Well, it's gone. Told ya. Sylves is currently on layover in Tokyo and I am just getting more and more excited every minute! Maybe I should sleep . . . but I don't know if that will be possible!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Update

Just so you all know:
(this is all in Utah time)
yesterday a.m. Sylves got a call
yesterday p.m. he picked up his visa
early early today a.m. plane ticket was acquired
today p.m. the reception deal-io was decided on
Then we had my bridal shower
and I will have my groom next Friday, the 2nd.
Labor Day weekend will be fun and exciting,
the next Saturday, 9-10-11, a.m., wedding!!!!
and early p.m. reception at the JSMB on Temple Square.

P.S. that was the most awful 3 weeks of my life. Thanks, government. I'm okay now, I think, but I'm not going to completely drop the issue because I hope for less people to have to suffer like that in the future. I really hope we can work something out. Really.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Back in Utah (rant)

Well, I just got back home officially. I'm not too happy about it. The major purpose of my trip was not accomplished, and I sit here, alone, still wondering how long I must still be alone in life. People say to be patient. I have been patient! Remember, I was supposed to get married in April! I don't know what happened this time, I was guided by some force greater than myself to buy my ticket when I did, we passed the interview without any ado, and the visa just never came. I was good and didn't buy him a ticket until the visa came, which it didn't, so I didn't, and I was somehow guided (after much crying) to fly back to North America by myself on Monday, which worked because I have obligations this weekend and school starts Monday and it still wouldn't have come so I would've still been by myself even if I flew Thursday. I just don't freakin' understand! I had most definitely been put under the impression that visas come within a week after the interview. When I called the embassy to see if that was a lie, the lady pretty much said yes. Other people later let me know it could be one to two weeks, or two to three weeks, or one person came up with the figure of 60 days. I would like to know where these numbers come from. I looked back on the State Department's many websites and could not find an answer. What do they freakin' have to do? Print the visa, tape/glue it in his passport, maybe send a letter to the State Department informing them a visa has been issued, and mail the passport back. Shouldn't take too long! Maybe the printer ran out of ink . . . or they couldn't find any glue. I don't think there's any excuse. Now everything is rough because I can't be sure of my own wedding date, so I can't book anything for the reception, and I can't invite anyone, and all my plans are just gone to crap because my own country won't let me get married. What a world. Dear U.S. government employee who may be reading this to spy on me which I haven't discounted as a possibility: I never did anything wrong. Stop looking for ways to punish me. I have many more things I'd like to say but for now I will refrain. At least the customs officer told me to "have a good one" when I came back this time although I still wasn't welcomed back. Oh, and dear people who read this blog, I am just ranting. If you do not know the answers, please don't speculate or tell me to be patient. The anger will eventually pass.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

the winging of it

Arrival in Philippines: check.
Interview: check.
Visa approved: check.
Arrival to Pangasinan: double check
Visit to Baguio: check.
Play in the ocean: check.
Eat taho: nope, sorry Ben
Eat balut: check.
Get sick: check.
Get better: check.
Thoroughly enjoy myself: check!
Receive visa: no check :-(
Ticket home: check--but you don't know how close this came to not being a check!
Faith in my country: lacking
Anger: it never lasts too long
Happiness: will be eternal
More to say: not really

Monday, August 1, 2011

Bye!

Well, I'm leaving today :-). Honestly, I'll be winging it on this trip. I hardly know what's going to happen, but it will be fun. All that's certain is that there's an interview on Wednesday, and I have a flight to L.A. on the 15th. We don't know if the interview will be passed, and then, if it is, he has to go to a seminar-thingy but we don't know what day that could be on. There are plans for a trip up to Baguio next weekend but if the seminar is then, then something else will happen. Assuming we get a good seminar date and that they give him the visa, then we still have to buy his plane ticket. I don't really know how to do that. I mean, he doesn't have a credit card or anything so we can't just buy it online like I did. So. I know people want to plan things, and I totally understand, but we can't just go assuming things about how the U.S. government works. I will provide updates when I can, but while we're still waiting for good news could I just ask that if you read this blog, would you please pray or cross your fingers or wish upon a star hard enough that things will work out the way we would all like? I'd appreciate it very much! See ya!

Sunday, July 31, 2011

um, why?

I resent that I am a piano performance major and no one at church ever asks me to play anything. I'm currently trying not to be offended about it, but having difficulty. Sorry for the rant.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Status:

Bookshelves=switched.

Bedroom=mostly organized.

Bathroom=all done except the shower curtain.

Office room=has all my stuff in it.

Brother's room=bed is turned.

Living room=still full of brother's stuff.

Piano=unpracticed. Crap.

Suitcases=empty. But not for long!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Cleaning, cleaning

It's the week of cleaning. I have to clean everything at home, and I have to clean everything at work. Not that this is a bad thing, it's really not, it's just sort of funny how these two weeks coincided. I knew this last week at work would be cleaning everything and I've known it for a while. Everything needs washing: test tubes, bins, buckets, bowls, rags, tables, lenses, floors, etc. And guess what, I'm not allowed to use the sink. LOL. There's buckets and other sinks, but still, why did it have to start leaking right before clean-up week? I will never know. That just makes it an adventure, I guess!

At home we've been working on various projects for a while, but it just so worked out that next week I leave for three weeks and the place better be ready for company when I return--with company. So I have to do as much as I possibly can while I'm still around. I had some makeshift furniture-moving parties last week and started scrubbing walls. Ripped up a carpet in one room and washed all the walls and polished the floor so I could put furniture in there. Now one of the other rooms has more space to put more furniture in (i.e. bookcase) but I need to wash all the walls first. Once I get my bookcase in, I can get my brother's bookcase out, and move the rest of his stuff into the other room where he's going to be, since it is all in the living room currently. Seems pretty simple but it's the wall-washing that's slowing me down for some reason. Plus I have institute, a wedding reception, maybe a baptism, visiting teaching, church, going to the temple, and going to see a movie that I have to fit in as well. All this week. Not to mention practicing the piano. Leaving the country is so intense! But I'm so excited!

Saturday, July 23, 2011

24

Today I turned 24. That's a nice, even number. I was supposed to have a furniture moving party yesterday, and a pool party today. Well, no one came over last night and only my family showed up at the pool, but it was still pretty sweet. I love hot summer days, the pool was very pleasant, and the 3 hours went by quick. My mother made me an applesauce cake and had almost too much fun decorating it--now you see where I get it! The frosting tasted like lemonade. She does have fun. She also brought ice cream and root beer and we had a lovely family picnic under our red umbrellas. Everyone else's were blue. HA. Then, we had our furniture moving party tonight with just me and my dad, and my sister helped a bit before she went home. Actually we did have half of the furniture moving party last night, and we did the other important part today, which was ripping up the carpet in my new bedroom. It's got a wood floor underneath; and once we got all the carpet out (and I got to play with a box cutter) it's still got a good finish on it from whenever it was covered up with carpet before. We pulled out all the staples and nail boards, swept up, and I have a nice, instant, new wood floor! It's pretty. Now, to wash all the walls, polish my floor up just a little bit, and put my new bed in there. And my clothes in the closet. And transfer my old curtains in. And get rugs. And some more stuff. But I'm happy with it and things might actually get to a "done" kind of state before I leave the country in a week. :-)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I did it.

I just bought plane tickets. And I am super excited about it! Holy crap, can I tell you?! Woohoo!!! First 2 weeks of August. And I won't be traveling alone on the way back. Yea!!!!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Karma? (Another UTA fail story)

So, after a day like Wednesday, Thursday had to make up for it by being horrible.

Before I left in the morning, I heard on the radio that there was a "police incident" on the Riverdale Road overpass, and all traffic on I-15 was being forced off, as well as all traffic on Riverdale Road not being allowed to cross the bridge. But for some reason, it didn't cross my mind that that would affect the bus, since it usually crosses on the next bridge up north anyway. Silly me. So I hopped on my bike because I wanted to take the bus and not drive. Well, a few minutes after getting on, the driver starts getting all these calls and other communications about it, and that traffic is way backed up around Riverdale and Roy and everywhere. And it finally came out that it was all because a guy was sitting on the edge of the bridge. I agreed with the driver that it is probably worth it to get off the bus and ride my bike up to the Roy FrontRunner station, even though it will make me late-because staying on the bus would also make me late. I considered just riding the rest of the way up to the school but decided against it because the 640 wouldn't be able to save me coming up 36th St. if I required it, with it being stuck on the west side of the freeway and all.

Here's where it gets fun. I get off the bus around 6000 S in Roy, and since I don't really know where the station is (I know the number is like, 41-hundred-something), I asked the bus driver what street to take down and she told me 4000 S. Silly me again, thinking the grid system would work! I didn't particularly want to stay on Main Street so I turned west at 4800 S and turned alternately north and west for a while. When I knew I was close to the tracks, I just went north. I got to a point where I could see the station to the left but the streets were all dead ends. THEN, the street I was riding on ended. I wasn't to 4000 yet, the road to the left was a dead end, and I didn't want to go east!

For some reason that I worked out in my brain I decided to turn back south and was determined that I would get to the station no matter how much bush-whacking it took. I turned at the second street, which actually ended at an orchard with a nice path through it so I took it, which brought me to the station, separated only by a fence--with barbed wire stretched across the top. Crap. I followed the fence up a little ways hoping that it would change, and luckily I found a small drainage-type ditch so I locked my bike to the fence and limboed under the fence to catch the train or bus to Ogden, as the bus I potentially needed was pulling away. I made it stop and asked if I had missed the train, the driver answered in the affirmative, so I got on.

Then I texted my people to tell them I would be really late, sharing my woes of having to ditch my bike and crawl under a fence. Once in Ogden, I asked the driver it would be worth it to get off and catch the 603 on 26th St and he assured me that it was not. So as we're pulling into the transit center, the 603 pulls away and I get a little mad. I tried to make the bus driver do something to get the other bus to stop but he wouldn't. At least that bus goes every 15 minutes so I wasn't in much more of a pickle than I was already in!

I did eventually make it up to the school about an hour after I would have if the 640 had been able to get me there. Then the thing was, I had left my bike in a private orchard . . . so I just had to hope all day that the owner didn't cut the lock and impound it or anything! I was sad not to be able to ride back down the hill to the station (one of my favorite things to do), and just had to cross my fingers the whole 8-minute train ride back to Roy. Lucky for me, my bike was still there! And due to things UTA does that I don't agree with, I ended up riding it all the way home from there. I knew July was going to be good for biking and the like! Wait--did that just turn into a success story? Oops.

And here I will share the issues I have with UTA, and there are 2:

1. I am quite convinced that they are not making smart decisions by cutting back on trips per day.
-If you miss one route and have to wait a whole hour before the next one comes by, I'm going to go back and drive and I bet many others feel the same way. Also, there are days I simply can't take the bus because it doesn't run late enough to get me home. I know for a fact I am not the only one with that issue. Cities like Chicago, New York, and San Francisco work because everyone knows if you miss one train or bus, another one will come along in a couple minutes and you won't really have a problem! If they would add trips instead of cutting them, I feel like they would gain more riders.

2. They don't do themselves any favors by placing their stops and stations in obscure locations that no one can find unless they've been there before.
-It's just rude to have so many streets lead up to your place and they all are actually dead ends except one. Also slightly dangerous--does the fire marshall know about this? It must be against some code or something. And it's not just the Roy station, either.

3. It used to only be 2, but on my ride home I came up with a new one: What kind of transit company has a toll-free number that isn't a 24-hour hotline?
-I never imagined that a public transit place would have their hotline close at 7pm! I was coming down Main St. and wanted to know when the 470 would be able to come save me since it was a long way, so I called the number and all it did was tell me their hours and that I could look online. Like heck I could! Jerks. If you want riders, you've gotta up the service, people. I'm tellin' ya. Wow. At least at the next bus stop it had posted route times. But not all stops have that, and they advertise the stupid hotline.

The end.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

A day at work

Today was awesome. For Science in the Parks, there were lots of kids but it was pretty laid back. There were enough volunteers that I got to go around and check on everyone all the time. Plus, I got to squirt the sprayer to help cool people off. That was fun. Oh, and I caught an awesome fly, a large ant, and a daddy-long-legs. I will totally look for that fly in the museum when the collection gets all set up (we don't keep spiders for that). It had black spotted wings. Then, back at the school, we got lots of boxes. I love getting boxes. I get to open them with knives and explode all the bubble-wrap inside! And that is after running around with an awesome dolly to get them from the one building into the other one. After we opened the boxes we went over to the other office to prepare stuff for the planetarium and Science Saturday. That office has a SmartBoard in it. So we turned it on and got on Hulu and watched like, 5 episodes of The Big Bang Theory while cutting, pinning, folding, and stapling various items. It was pretty awesome. Yes, I did handle the stapler. My coworkers gave me permission. Then I rode my bike home (and FrontRunner). Awesome. Sorry if I use that word a lot, it is just so adequate for what I do.

Friday, July 1, 2011

July is a happy time

It is July. This morning I knew it was going to be a good month. I took my bike to Ogden, for the first time this year. I'm going to keep doing that. Also, I'm going hiking tomorrow. First time this year as well, and it will be Mount Timpanogos. It wasn't my idea . . . but I'm sure it will be the first of many hikes. I'm already planning a night hike for the 4th of July. And a Sunday stroll up Waterfall Canyon sometime soon. Then this evening I got the best news of all: my fiance got his letter from the U.S embassy! Only the medical exam and the interview are left before he can have his visa! Hooray!!!!!!!! If this is all done by the 23rd, that will be the most wonderful birthday present. It's gonna be a great month. I knew it as soon as it started. Woot!

btw Science is ongoing, and Pioneer Day is always a fun holiday, too :-)

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

T-shirts

The following 2 images are t-shirt designs found on shirt.woot.com. The one is called "minor modifications" and the other is called "in harmony." They are both awesome. But I'm not quite decided on buying anything, yet.




The pluto reference, everyone would understand. But the other one is the harmonic series! Of course I think it's cool, but I don't think many other people would get it. Actually I think more of the physics professors would get it than music professors . . . and about enough of my friends to count on one hand. So I don't know which is more worth it: to teach everyone about the harmonic series, or to just enjoy a joke with everyone about pluto. Hmmmmm.....

Sunday, June 12, 2011

A sad post

This is me being sad. If you don't want to be sad, don't read it.

I've been going to my current ward for nearly a year now. I was never given a calling or assignment or anything which has made me sad. I have a lot to offer. I do go and sing in the choir but that's not a calling. In the about 10 months I've been going to the ward, I had a visiting teacher come twice (December and February) before she moved. After that, I made sure to find out at least one person who was assigned to visit me, and she never did, and now she is moving this week. Last Sunday was a very happy day for me: I had just found out that my petition was approved, it was WARM, and I was finally given a visiting teaching assignment of my own! I was so happy that day, SOO happy!! You don't understand how happy I was last Sunday. Well, Monday night someone decided to turn the AC on at home and I was much less happy. Anyway, all week I was fantasizing about going visiting teaching which was happy thoughts. Today at church I approached my companion so we could plan some stuff and she informed me that we weren't actually companions. She had already gone to the coordinator person and had her daughter be her companion instead. I'm not gonna lie, that was a blow. I thought there was still hope though, that if she had a new companion, then I probably did too! I didn't get to talk to the coordinator person until after Sunday School, and she told me I did not have a new companion. Now that really was a blow. I barely made it through the opening song and prayer in RS without anyone noticing how suddenly sad I was. After church was over I had to work hard not to cry too, until I got home, then I shut myself in my room and lost it. I haven't cried so hard in a loooong time. My kitty was cute, she came and snuggled up next to my arm next to my head and came back to resnuggle every time I got up to blow my nose. But man, I sure cried. Now that I think about it, things that make me cry are often when I get really excited aout something and it gets taken away. Well, that's my sad story. Tomorrow I will be happy again because it's the first day of Science in the Parks. And that won't be cancelled or taken away from me, haHA! I don't like being sad, I also try not to label myself as a victim, and I'm not perfect, but I do wish that I would be made to feel appreciated a bit more often. Crossing my fingers. That is all.

Friday, June 10, 2011

In Other News

I finally heard back from the USCIS--my petition was approved! I found out on June 3 that they had mailed my notice of acceptance on May 31, then I got it on June 4th. Apparently, the USCIS mails the approved petition to the Department of State, and then they review it and give it a new case number and mail it to the embassy in Manila. So the USCIS isn't Federal enough? Whatever. That should be 2-4 weeks they say. Then once the thing is in Manila, the actual visa can be applied for! As far as I know, that requires more piles of paperwork, much of it the same, but since some things are expired they must be acquired again. Blah. He fills out and gathers paperwork, gets medically examined, and has an interview and then we should be set for me to bring him home with me. I don't know really how long this phase will take but our newest (rather uninformed) goal is for the rather auspicious event to go down on or around August 17, 2011.

That Thing

I did finish writing those scripts. Then one of them needed major revisions. I tried for a while but then I actually did assign it to someone else (thinking it would get done faster--I haven't heard back from the guy yet). The other two have been recorded. Now my task is to edit the recordings. And again, I can hardly bring myself to do it. Sigh. As much as I hate flakes, I've sure been one.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

UTA Fail story

Wednesday: I didn't leave the house soon enough to catch the 10:31 Frontrunner, so I figured I would take the 10:43 bus. I got out to the street by 10:43, but not to the stop until 10:45, and so somehow I convinced myself I had missed the bus, and decided to go on to the FrontRunner station by foot, to supposedly catch the 11:01 train. 1 mile, 15 minutes, totally do-able, right? So I sort of ran-walked up 1700W and then turned on 1450S, and when I was half-way to Main St the bus passed me.

At that point I had 2 options: (1) go on to the station anyway, or (2) since the bus goes in to the station and comes back out I could potentially catch it near the stoplight. I left the decision aside for a while since both paths were the same until I was out on Main St anyway. If I hadn't been eating a bagel while run-walking I probably would have been a bit faster. Oops. Because by the time I did get to the light, it was red the wrong way so I watched the bus come back out of the station and turn and leave me and there was nothing I could do about it.

But that was fine, right? I still had another option . . . I looked at my watch and figured if I ran all the rest of the way to the station, and all the way in to get on the platform, I could make it by 11:01. Especially since I had finished my bagel by this point. So I took off. Oh, and I was wearing sandals. As I was running down the path to get in, I did wonder why there weren't more people coming in as well. Once I got to the concrete barrier at the edge of the parking lot (about 2/3 of the way from where I started running) it suddenly dawned on me what an idiot I was and why I had wanted to catch the bus in the first place: There is no 11:01 train. There hasn't been for a while. Like, over a year now. D'oh! Needless to say, I climbed over the concrete barrier and didn't run anymore.

Now I knew that another bus would come, then the train would come. Either option would get me to where I was going at pretty much the same time. The train maybe 1 or 2 minutes faster. I sat down in the bus shelter with the intention that I would just take the bus, unless it was late. Well, it was late. So I stood there and thought "screw you" and when it left I walked down to the train platform and then 5 minutes later was on my way. That way I got to read a little in my book too. I don't read it on the bus usually but the FrontRunner is a smooth ride. Anyway, I felt good for having ran, but sad for getting out later than I had intended. I don't particularly like that they cut out half of the train runs in the middle of the day! It's messed me up more than once!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

What I do

My day began with an early-morning HARBOR meeting and I did stuff for HARBOR for about 2 hours. Then I did an hour of stuff for Science in the Parks. Then I did work for the planetarium for a few hours. Then 2.5 more hours for SitP. A little bit more HARBOR before I went home. In the evening among other things I practiced the piano for a bit (we had it tuned yesterday!). Why do I do all these things, you ask? Well, I am a piano major so I better practice that; SitP is paying a good chunk of my tuition so I can finish up my last year of study, and it's pretty fun too; the planetarium is pretty much the most awesome job ever; and HARBOR, well, honestly I'm not totally sure why I do HARBOR. It's cool, and super fun, and I get awesome bragging rights, but I don't know why I do it. Mostly I'm going this weekend so I can get a new space-pin since my other one went AWOL, but come August if a certain something comes up I'm definitely ditching the balloon bonanza. It's fun, but why go? I really don't know the answer to that one. But, I do still love my physics department! And my piano department!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

XKCD wins again

I don't know why I titled this post that way... But I looked at the new XKCD comic for today (http://xkcd.com/903/) and the pop-up text was clearly a challenge:

Wikipedia trivia: If you take any article,click on the first link in the article text not in parentheses or italics, and then repeat, you will eventually end up at "Philosophy".

So I tried it for a while. Other than a few scares where I thought I was caught in a loop, an article almost didn't have any links not in parentheses, and a scary deviation to the Wiktionary, I always ended up going to Philosophy. My list included:
rover
clef
Belgium
pink
Christmas
Crayola
puto
Forbidden City
Toy Story
cabinet
timbales
philosophy
daylight saving time
cat
Stephen Hawking
Google
kiss
Danse Macabre
denim
tithing
tithe
Moody's
Roald Dahl
wikipedia
rondo
Jack Sparrow
Weather
Wait, wait, wait, I found one that doesn't work: Amusement park. I got stuck in a very short loop. Ironically, at the top of this article is a warning box that says "This article has multiple issues." LOL. Try it if you want, see if you can stump Wikipedia!

Why is it that...

...every time I actually make a schedule for myself to use time wisely, I get sick or something the first day and it throws everything off?! Grrrrrrrrr!

Monday, May 16, 2011

My Math Life

In 3rd grade I was accepted into the Spectrum program, which advanced me one year ahead of the normal track for math. We even did a little trigonometry in 6th grade. In Jr High, I was then able to take Algebra 1 as a 7th grader, and Geometry as an 8th grader. At that time in DCSD that was acceptable; there were lots of 7th graders in Algebra and lots of 8th graders in Geometry. In 9th grade, I lived in a different state, and was in the High School as a freshman. I was then the ONLY 9th grader in Algebra 2. Proved a little awkward whenever someone in my class would realize this, lol. We were administered a state math exam at some point, for 10th graders, but I had to take it because I was in the Algebra 2 class, thought to be only full of 10th graders, and proceeded to place 2nd in the state on said exam. I'm pretty sure it was in the state, not the school, but maybe it was the school. In class I remember I did fail one project on optimization and had to do another one but I did very well on everything else.

Back to Utah for high school 10th grade, I registered for Pre-Calculus without any problem. I aced the pre-test except I missed 2 points when I decided that -1=1 on 2 separate problems. Oops :-). In 11th grade I then took Calculus and aced the AP test with a 5. After Calculus, the only math class left is Statistics. I couldn't fit it into my schedule so I talked to the teacher and did it independent study on his prep hour because I couldn't bear to not have a math class. Also aced the AP test with a 5. In 12th grade I did Academic Olympiad, and I tied for 3rd place on the math section but lost whatever tie breaker they looked at. I was the only one from my school to be that close to winning something in any category at Academic Olympiad. When I applied for Sterling Scholar, I entered for Music and Math and got second place on both. There was actually a glorious half hour where the 1st place in math conceded it to me, but then he took it back. D'oh. Second place winners in Sterling Scholar don't get anything. I recently dug up some stuff that says I participated in the state math competition for 2 years, and yes I vaguely remember it now. I had to look up what I got, they only placed you against others in the same grade, so in 10th grade I was tied in 13th place, and in 12th grade I tied for 23rd place.

In college, I then did not have to take any math classes . . . so I made up for it by being a math tutor. I did it for 2 years, 2005-2007. It was nice to share my skills. I know I could have been a math teacher, people often say that I should, but I don't think I could handle all the crap from kids who don't want to try. I do enjoy sharing things that make me happy--when others appreciate it. I did actually end up taking Calculus 2 in the 2nd half of my second year, and my teacher tried super hard to get me to be a math major of some kind because he was so impressed. I aced a lot of tests in that class.

After that I haven't done any formal math stuff. I was able to help one or two people with some algebra on my mission 2008-2010 (try it in a foreign language!) and I have recently helped some people with matrices and stuff. On one of these occasions I got out my old notes from HS but it was mostly so I could get some decent problems to solve instead of making up my own (that doesn't usually turn out well). If I already had problems to look at, I know I would have been able to do them without looking anything up. Now, that is algebra. If it's calculus, I do well with some reminders of certain formulas, but I don't often get asked for help on that. I have been asked for help on those kind of things, and I have in fact been able to help the people get the answer somehow.

I like math. I'm good at it. I ROCK at it. I don't understand how other people can hate it so much. I don't understand how a standardized test in HIGH SCHOOL can have three questions asking "which of the following fractions are equal to 1." I learned that in FIFTH GRADE which means most students learn it in SIXTH GRADE. I don't understand why DCSD is finding it necessary to require 4 years of math from everyone when some students are taking Calculus in 11th grade, or why they are considering limiting the number of AP classes a student can take--hello, it's possible to excel in different subjects at the same time! I don't understand how so many college freshman need remedial math, or can't pass college algebra when they've already seen most of it in their k-12 years. I also don't understand why now it is strange for a 7th grader to take Algebra, and my brother was not going to be allowed to take it when he got to 7th grade, nor that he was nearly denied to be allowed to take Geometry as an 8th grader after successfully completing Algebra. What a world. Sorry that turned into a rant, but math is POSSIBLE to do and no one should be telling anyone that it's not.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Wednesday

Got up at 6:30.
Went to a symposium for the Rocky Mountain Space Grant consortium.
Learned about awesome research projects going on at other universities.
One research project involved lots of awesome origami.
I looked closely at one of the origami figures.
I spent the car ride back trying to replicate the cool origami.
Shortly after getting back I succeeded in my replication.
Then I replicated it again for good measure.
Presented in the planetarium for boy scouts.
Saw Saturn and the moon in telescopes.
Was rewarded with ice cream by my boss for a good show.
Visited with a friend.
Watched a Batman movie with Adam West---awesome!
Got home at 1.
:-)

Monday, May 9, 2011

Holy Crap.

I have some serious writer's block. This hasn't happened since 8th grade. I can write stuff, but I don't like to. For this particular project I just can't do it. I can not bring myself to write what I am supposed to. Every time I sit down to try, my mind freaks out. I don't know why this happens but it's annoying. In 8th grade, I had to write a paper about a certain place in my town. I did all the research and had pictures and I knew everything, I may have even had an interview, but I just couldn't write the paper. I never did write it. We were supposed to post our papers on a website. I wrote up something for the website but it wasn't a formal research paper. Never mind that every single other writing project that I did do in that Honors English class was great, they wouldn't let me into Honors English again for 9th grade. In other classes at other times in the near and distant past, sometimes I freaked out about certain papers as well, but I got them done. Some were late, some were all-nighters before the deadline, but I got high marks on every one, despite the stress and trauma. Why do I hate doing something I am good at? I'll edit papers, I'll transcribe, I'll record, I'll read, I'll cut and paste, I'll even criticize, but make me write one and it could get dangerous. Doesn't make sense. If I ever get this written and come out alive, DON'T EVER LET ME ASSIGN MYSELF TO WRITE A SCRIPT AGAIN! And be warned lest you ever try to assign me to write one. It'll cost you a lot of chocolate and wasted time. I'm probably not done venting about this. The deadline was Dec. 31 and I'm not getting out of this one. Does anyone know how to hypnotize me into doing it? That might work...

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

A few things

I rode my bike* on Saturday!
Sunday was Easter*!
Monday I slept* a lot!
Tuesday I had a great time with a friend* at Jamba Juice!
Wednesday I saw my grades*!

*****

bike: it was so I could find a place to get my haircut. Turned into an adventure, especially since I didn't know of any specific places, I just got on and took off. Felt pretty good. Also went to a concert on Temple Square and had a boba drink afterward, though not on my bike.

Easter: what a wonderful day to remember the sacrifice of our Savior, Jesus Christ. He suffered for each and every one of us, for our sins, and he died so that he could overcome physical death also for each one of us. Unfathomable, really, but it is certain that He loves me and He loves you, and the least we can do is accept His gift by following His teachings.

sleep: something I enjoy WAY too much. But then I do stay up playing the piano super late at night, too. Hmmmm. Oh, and I also had a short interview on Monday to find out how much I get to PLAY this summer and get paid for it! I love my job!

friend: I think this friend wishes to be unnamed, but it was sure great to see her and we had a wonderful almost two hours just talking. I provided this friend with marshmallow peeps and fully expect her to get all the microwave entertainment she can out of them.

grades: turned out pretty good for skipping those two classes so many times... one B, one A-, and the rest A's! Yup, they love me. And, I have begun my duties as president of our student chapter of MTNA. I'm working on not killing myself with stuff to do in the next year . . .

Friday, April 22, 2011

Short Descriptions of My Afternoon:

"Smash it with a hammer!"
Power drill in one hand, power drill in the other hand, *evil giggling*
Played with a pickaxe!
"Look what I'm ready to do"! (proceeds to remove coat)
Caleb: "you stand here so the fence can fall on YOU this time"
Sledgehammers are big :-)
(sing-song voice) "Oh Caleb! Look what I got!" (holds up a large mass of weeds)
I found more duct tape buried in the dirt, who knows what it was supposed to be holding together.
Boy, am I gonna be sore tomorrow!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Almost over

The semester is almost over!! What am I going to do with my life?

Piano Lessons/Masterclass: Had my juries today. I was pretty awesome by writing my 2 papers in 20 minutes each. I signed up for the last spot because I had to work 9:30-11:30, and it would have been exactly perfect except they wanted me to go 10 minutes early! I had gone through my scales and was about to run through the fugue part of my piece when they came and got me. So I had to play with no warm-up. It was all right, I think it would have been better if I had had my 10 minutes!

Accompanying II: Finished this last week by playing in convocation and writing 3 papers in under an hour and a half to turn in the same day. I am awesome. This class, however, wasn't. Time to return the books I borrowed.

Theory IV: Final quiz last Friday. Full points just for showing up. Ha!

Counterpoint: Final quiz last Tuesday. I feel pretty good after hearing my professor tell people how impressed he was with how much I knew on the subject. I still should try and turn in some more assignments, though.

Music Technology: Sure it was quite a bit of work through the semester, but I don't think it was as bad as everyone always made it out to be. I had my exit interview today and scraped an A, even after missing the deadline for the final assignment (I can't figure out how I was supposed to know when it was). And now I get to mail back the book I rented!

Keyboard Literature II: Final exam (including listening test) tomorrow afternoon. It is not cumulative. I should study for this...

Wind Ensemble: I need to turn in my music, and then we play in commencement on Friday morning at 7:30. Ugh. That was an annoying class--not because I don't like being in the ensemble, but because I had nothing to do! He says next year I'll have lots of fun parts. That's what he told me this year. At least on the commencement concert I get to actually play stuff!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Is anyone a lawyer?

If you are a lawyer and you are reading this, please help me!

Is there no way to enter the U.S. without waiting forever for a visa?
Is there any way to get a visa in less than 5 months?
Will writing to my senator make any difference?
Is it true that it is harder to get a K-3 spouse visa than a K-1 fiance visa?
If I marry someone out of the country, how hard is it really for him to come into the country?
What is the USCIS really doing with my petition?
Is there any way to know how much longer I have to wait?
Why don't I get any real answers even if I DO talk to a real person on the phone?
Is it harder for me to get through this process because I'm the girl?
Why is it so dang hard to enter the country legally?
Whatever happened to "All men are created equal" anyway?

I'm sure you can imagine I have many more questions along the same lines. You can't blame me. If you know any of the answers, please share! I'll feel so much better knowing that there ARE, in fact, answers!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Things to say (flow of thought)

So apparently Friday is NOT the last day of class, but Monday IS. Weird. And I only have one final exam! Besides juries. And it's not cumulative! How did I get so lucky?

I rode the FrontRunner to Salt Lake and went to the temple today. A good day. Other than the freeze warning they put out for tonight!

My mother put the Christmas tree back up. She's been threatening to for a long time now, because it's still been snowing. Well now she really has had it and put the thing up. I helped. She bought a bunch of Easter decorations and put them on it. See where I get my randomness from?

I'm doing Science in the Parks again this summer, and it's going to be awesome! It always is :-). I love my school, I love my job, I love a lot of stuff.

Not some things, like the immigration process. Since it's getting closer to our original goal date to be married, everyone is constantly asking me
"when are you getting married"
"when is the wedding"
"when is your wedding"
"when are you getting married"
"are you still engaged"
"are you married yet"
"when are you getting married"
"when do we get to meet him"
"when's the wedding"
"did you get married"
and things like that. It's nice to know people care and are interested, but I care too and if you are related to me, or go to church with me, you will KNOW when I know, and there's a good chance that if you aren't in either of those two groups, you will also KNOW in a timely manner one way or another. Like when I flew to the Philippines and came back with a ring, most people knew pretty quick. I can only imagine that next time when I fly to the Philippines and come back with a man, most people are going to know probably even faster.

And NO, I DON'T KNOW WHEN THAT WILL BE. It's the United States Government we're talking about. Since when do they do things the way we want them done? At least it's nice to know they didn't shut down so they can keep staring at the piles of paperwork I sent them and try and do background checks on me. They've been doing a lot of weird stuff lately. If they would read the Declaration of Independence, and the Constitution, and the Statue of Liberty's thing every once in a while they might realize how they are in violation of those very fundamental things to this nation! In fact, there's probably some law that could get me in a lot of trouble for those last five sentences. Which is incredibly ironic.

I won't rant about the government anymore right now, let's get to something happier! I went to institute tonight where we studied the Passover. WOW. I shouldn't put the details in the same blog post as a rant about the government. But it was GOOD. It's always good, Sister Poulsen is an amazing teacher and of course the Spirit is so real and strong when you're studying the life and sacrifice of Jesus Christ.

There was an interesting thing last night--on the news, they reported someone found an image of Christ in a flower, and my brother and I were like, "dang, people will find that in anything!" But you know what? I realize that there is nothing wrong with that. In fact, it states in Alma 30:44 that "...all things denote there is a God." ALL things. So if you think you see Jesus in your potato chip, tree stump, flower, or grilled cheese sandwich, I say more power to you (Just don't worship those things).

Thursday, April 7, 2011

The "S" word

I listen to KSL every morning and most evenings. That means I get a LOT of weather forecasts. In the past few days I have heard that there would be rain, rain, and rain this weekend, not ONCE did I hear the "S" word used. Why, then, when I looked out the window at Weber this morning, was it doing significantly more than just raining?! And in the afternoon, I had to brush off the car 4 times in a 5 hour period?! NOW they tell me that it will s#&@ tonight, tomorrow, and Saturday. Boooo. It is APRIL. Sure, I understand why they had to use the "S" word for last Sunday, it was conference weekend, and it's almost expected that the weather will turn out strange for that. But now it's supposed to be nice. Last April, the same thing happened. I thought it was some sick April Fool's joke that the world played on me, that the s#&@ was there when I came home from the tropics and decided to tease me that whole month. Sure. But why this year too?! If it would s#&@ in December, we would accept it. I would accept it, that's supposed to happen in December. An excellent question: why, then, does it not s#&@ like this in December? As the phrase goes, April SHOWERS bring May flowers. It can't be, "April s#&@ brings May flowers" that just doesn't work at all. What would April s#&@ bring anyway? I don't even want to think about that...

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

List

Yesterday: Student recital
Today: Bach Concert
Tomorrow: Student recital (am), teach music, Student recital (pm)
Friday: who knows?
Saturday: do taxes, throw things off roof, attend senior recital
Sunday: concerto night
Monday: teach music
Tuesday: student recital (am), jury recital (pm)
Wednesday: play background music @ event
Thursday: piano lesson, celebrate passover
Friday: LAST DAY OF CLASS! attend junior recitals
Saturday: work
Sunday: theoretical day of rest
Monday: band rehearsal
Tuesday: write music papers
Wednesday: work, piano jury
Thursday: planetarium boy scouts
Friday: play @ commencement
THEN IT'S OVER!!!! kind of.....

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Milwaukee/Chicago

My trip was amazing. Friday I took planes to Chicago and then Amtrak to Milwaukee, and left early enough that the snow didn't do anything to me. Others that left that day were pretty severely affected by the snow (delayed, cancelled, rerouted, etc.). In Chicago I also rode the L train and ate a cheddar chili cheese dog, Mmm!

Saturday I learned a lot at the MTNA conference and we even explored a mall a little bit. I had a giant piece of cheesy Wisconsin pizza with stuffed crust. There was a collegiate reception and a great concert that night.

Sunday Dr. V's duo team competed in the morning (half the reason I went at all) and they did great. Especially since one of them had been sick the night before! Yay for prayers and blessings! They didn't actually place but just making it to the national finals is pretty impressive! I feel like I'm related somehow since we study with the same teacher :-). Amy and I checked out of our hotel and moved to another one down the street (funny what college students will do to save money). We got lots of free stuff at the exhibits too. There was an excellent open house/reception at the Hal Leonard company where we had virgin cocktails, pasta, bratwurst, ice cream, and lots of Wisconsin cheese!

Monday I was privileged to watch part of the collegiate solo piano competition. Wow. I also got lots more free stuff. There was a banquet that evening, one I paid $90 to go to . . . hey, it was the other half of the reason I went on this trip. It was super great! Besides the yummy yummy food, cocktails (virgin of course again), and live accordion player, it was where Dr. Yang became an MTNA Fellow. Have I ever mentioned how much I love my school? I could dedicate a whole other blog post to the many other reasons why as well. One of my favorite parts of the night was when they made us take some of the extra cupcakes back to our hotel. Imagine 2 beautiful girls in beautiful dresses walking down the street in the dark in downtown Milwaukee, holding cupcakes :-) Makes me giggle every time!

Tuesday I got up early and took Amtrak back to Chicago. While walking from the Amtrak station to the subway, I guess I fit in so well that someone asked me for directions somewhere. That made me super happy too, especially since I actually could tell him what he wanted to know! It was a street I had just passed. I met my friend Heather and we had a wonderful day downtown going up the Willis Tower (formerly the Sears Tower), riding the L train, having the most divine Cajun food for lunch, and playing at Millennium Park. We went to play a concert with the WSU Wind Ensemble at the Chicago Symphony Center in the evening. I could tell other stories but I might wait until I get more pictures from Heather. Anyway, I'm glad that the two of us were able to have a great time and I stayed with her and her cousin that night.

Wednesday we got to take the subway at rush hour :P That was fun. Really, it was! I enjoy public transit. The L train to Midway wasn't as crowded. I got there, no problem, and had no problems getting home except that I had a headache all day and my flight in Denver was delayed one hour. But, hey, for a whole big trip like that I think I got off pretty good! I LOVE to travel :-)

Sunday, March 20, 2011

My Spring Break

Yes, it was awesome! I slept, watched movies, went shoe shopping, played in the pit, got my grandpa's car inspected and registered, planned wedding stuff, slept, worked, attended a baptism, a homecoming, and Music & the Spoken Word IN THE TABERNACLE, besides playing in the pit. Did I mention I slept and played in the pit? Two of my very favorite activities. Not at the same time, of course! I did a little tiny bit of homework, might regret not doing more in the next 48ish hours but whatever. I needed that break so bad and I loved it! If I can get a nice recording of my one composition I finished I will post it at a later time.

Lastly, I need to say that the Tabernacle is so cool! It was my first time actually getting into the place itself for M&tSW. Totally beats the same show in the conference center, hands down. Gotta be the acoustics. Those come from the shape of the building, with it's nifty parabolic ends :-) Is it parabolic or hyperbolic? I wonder if I've got my conic sections confused... Anyway, there really aren't words to describe how amazingly awesome it was to hear the Tabernacle Choir and Orchestra at Temple Square perform in their very own home venue. No words. Yea for stuff! Good night!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

I figured something out

I like being in the pit NOW because I hear the kids singing and see them dancing around me and I know that they wouldn't have as good an experience if I wasn't there. Then the people clap and cheer and I know part of that is for me. I'm happy because they are happy and I'm using my talents to bless others! In the before-mentioned experiences my talents hardly did much because of the poor equipment quality; so I couldn't share my full potential and wasn't nearly as happy.

In band, my professor got me to be in it and commit to going on a trip with them by expressing that he really wanted to use my talent. When he changed things around so I hardly got to do anything maybe you can imagine how I felt. I thought he wanted me and my talent there and then gives me almost nothing to do. How can I bless others by just sitting there? Which is why now I'm going on a different trip where I can appreciate other people's talents that bless my own life. Lucky for everyone the two trips are only an hour and a half away from each other.

Then, in my own piano studies, sure I have fun, but there's always times when I don't want to practice anymore. Well, I figure it's probably because playing Bach over and over again doesn't help anyone else. It just doesn't have the same draw. I study piano because I want to be in ensembles, I want to accompany people, I want to be in (surprise) pit orchestras. Well okay, I do have dreams of playing piano in lobbies or over dinners, that's solo stuff. But still. I can accept that the things I learn as a solo pianist I can apply to being an ensemble pianist. Although the super-nit-picky Bach stuff maybe not so much...

I've always known that when I don't feel appreciated I don't feel happy. What I figured out is that that fact explains a lot of my feelings from the past few weeks. It's nice for me to be able to sit and play and know that I'm helping others do great things, like senior recitals or high school musicals, or concerts, or auditions. In concerts though, it helps if I have a significant part (sorry, 1 out of 8 pieces doesn't provide for the happy to outweigh the not so happy, especially when I was expecting more). Does that make me prideful? I don't know, but when I'm using my talents to bless others, it's a wonderful feeling!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

It's a good thing I like doing this

Woohoo! Pit orchestra is so fun! I guess maybe I'm over last Friday. Maybe. It makes a difference to have a good instrument when you do this. A huge difference, really. Since I signed my contract and I have my keyboard when I get there I can just enjoy myself now! There's even a spotlight on my head sometimes (LHS doesn't have a real pit) and it doesn't really exactly bring back memories, but it does makes me happy to be playing in a pit orchestra. I tell people that it's one of my dreams to play in professional pit orchestras. That's mostly why I'm doing this in the first place, right? I can't explain how I felt tonight in the dress rehearsal, it was just happy. And I have some experiences under my belt for the next time I get to do it, so all in all a valuable experience. Well, so far. I guess I should wait until the show is over 'cause we're still on dress rehearsals right now... but I'm happy. A good pick-me-up before I go do something that doesn't make me so happy...theory homework...ugh

Sunday, March 6, 2011

The Friday BAD Story

Back story--I agreed sometime last October or November to play in the pit orchestra for a local high school which we will call "LHS" for short (of course meaning Local High School!), because 1.it's something I like to do, and 2.they're going to pay me to do it, and 3.I've always thought it would be cool to work with the theater director there, (whom we will refer to as "Mr. D") because he has an amazing reputation for being amazing. Well, NOW I don't know how Mr. D got that reputation, and please no one ever let me go do anything music-related at LHS ever again. I've had bad music related experiences there before and this is no better. Mr. D and the other keyboardist said they'd try to find a keyboard for me to play (they don't even have a keyboard, you ask? well, they do, but not one worth playing).

1st rehearsal: yeah, there's a keyboard, but that's all. No pedal, no amp, no cable, no stand. Basically a piece of crap too, once they found a stand, amp, and cable. No pedal, but I'm a good enough player that it wasn't a huge problem for a rehearsal only. The conductor then asks everyone for their contracts back. Great, no one ever gave me one! I tell them to get me a contract, and say I will ask around for a keyboard since they didn't. Am unable to get one.

2nd rehearsal: use the crap keyboard again after having to find all the necessary other equipment again. The cable picked up a radio signal the whole time. Still no contract. When the others were wheeling the "keyboard cart" back to wherever it came from after the rehearsal, all the crap keyboards fell off going up the ramp. I give the other keyboardist my email and phone number because he's going to see about getting a keyboard, just in case he can't get one and we just have to use mine, but I don't really want my keyboard sitting at a high school. He emails me Tuesday saying he can't get the keyboard so what is my address and he'll come get mine Friday afternoon. I reply on Wednesday and spend Thursday night clearing my keyboard off so it can be taken out (I had previously explained to Mr. D that I have a keyboard, but it would be very inconvenient for me to bring it).

Friday evening BAD story--I am ready well before 6 with my keyboard and everything to go to LHS. Rehearsal is supposed to start at 7 so we need to be there before then to get set up. So I'm super freaking out by 7:30 when no one has come, emailed or called! What makes me the most angry is that I don't think anyone even tried to contact me. I certainly tried to contact them! I did! I was frantic and super angry. Dad tells me to just go so I do, and there's everyone, having a happy little rehearsal. Did they miss me? Hard to say. They at least took the liberty of setting up the crap-keyboard for me . . .

Afterwards we grab some guys to come help get my keyboard and bring it back. But I tell Mr. D I'm not going anywhere until I see a contract first. He finally gets me one, we bring my keyboard back, and as we're lowering it into the pit, Mr. D says "I think that's the same model keyboard I have." WHAT THE HECK! And the other keyboardist's excuse was he can't read email on his phone anymore. So, what, do you not have access to a computer? Does your phone not make calls? Or send texts? I didn't ask. Super angry. SUPER SUPER angry.

The show opens next Thursday, so the next 2 weeks for me are shot again. I hope it all goes better than it has so far but seriously, please don't let me do anything musical for LHS again. And probably not for Mr. D either. I don't like to be angry!

They brought up journals again

Monday--I did yoga at another ward's FHE. Super fun! Then me and BFF wrote names on certificates and tried to find places in the world hotter than 32 Celsius (the current temp in Manila). Great game for geography, as iPod weather doesn't recognize countries, only cities. So we'd think of a country that gets hot weather, and then have to come up with cities in that country, as not all cities are recognized, either. We had fun. Bangkok was the only winner.

Tuesday--nothing exciting

Wednesday--also nothing exciting. Except I actually got up early and did music theory hw, then stayed up late doing piano festival stuff.

Thursday--got up early again for piano festival stuff. Then 4 of us pianists had a large argument about whether or not we should go to class at 9:30 . . . we ended up going but it was amusing the way we got there. My mom bought me dinner at Red Robin and I got a sweet little orange cone out of a quarter machine that says "out of order." I wanted to put it on my head so bad I drove to the mall and got a headband with a matching orange bow. Back at Weber I asked the secretary for a rubber band and I found a box of giant orange rubber bands! I totally tied the cone to the headband and I've been wearing it since. There was a band concert and it didn't make me happy. I was happy when I was playing but that's it. Bad night. Stayed up late again clearing off my keyboard.

Friday--class, piano festival stuff, class that was cancelled. Band professor tells me he's changed his mind yet again and we are going to play "Give Us This Day" in Chicago. That made me happy, but I have made my plans to go to Milwaukee instead. But that will make the one-day side trip to Chicago for me more enjoyable (i.e. I get to play TWO songs instead of just one on the concert). Evening was BAD... Details will come in a future blog post. Stayed up late again, I forget why.

Saturday--up early again for the Piano Festival. I set FOUR alarms so I would be there on time. Most everything went well, actually! The worst was in the morning, not everyone else was on time. As I was trying to figure out how things were going to work so we could START, my fiance starts texting me too. Worst possible timing. All I could say was "I'm busy now, please stop sending me messages" and the poor guy was probably thinking, "whaa? oh man what did I do..." That was my only blow-up though. Everything did go pretty well, what with my people having to help with the string festival too; it all got figured out and was a successful day! Lots of compliments on how well-organized it was :-) Dr. Yang bought us all ice cream afterwards, and I had a sweet bath in the jetted tub that night.

Sunday--Sunday School teacher mentions journals and how we should share what we learn in class or at least write it down. So, it was about "Come unto Me, all ye that labor, and I will give you rest," and "the Son of Man is Lord also of the Sabbath." Both great topics. I labor and need rest, and I do notice that like, when I go to institute or something (coming unto Christ), I feel so much better afterwards. Also, I like that Sunday is a day of rest, and I strive to keep the Sabbath Day holy. Following the commandments is definitely a good thing--it bring blessings :-)

Friday, March 4, 2011

more ways to handle stress

-try not to think about it
-do something for you
-stay up really late
-complain
-cry. again. and again.
-pray more
-go out in the cold with no coat
-talk to yourself
-throw things. or not.
-count your blessings instead

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Institute!

So pretty much Sister Poulsen is the most amazing gospel teacher ever. I always learn so much in her class! Today was about Ephesians. Paul's message to them was about becoming one. She shared with us a bunch of cool Hebrew stuff about different meanings of the word "one" and it was so great. Everything I've ever been taught jives with what the truth actually is. (Can we say, God (and His church) is the same yesterday, today, and forever?). She didn't actually share this verse but it pretty well sums up a lot of the point:

That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee, that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me. (John 17:21)

I love this verse. It sets forth that the Father and the Son are two distinct beings but are united as one (Hebrew: "one together") because it also sets forth the analogy that we can be one with them--one together with them. And of course, knowing that we are certainly distinct beings apart from God, Jesus just disproved the idea of the trinity right there. Anyway, that's why I like that verse. But our lesson was about one-ness. The coolest part was probably when she went over the armor of God. Interpret: God's armor. New idea! But it's awesome!

-loins girt about with truth-- what is truth? Well, Christ is the way, the truth, and the life, so there.
-having on the breastplate of righteousness--what is righteousness? Another student shared a piece of Chinese, where part of the character for "righteousness" is the same as the character for "lamb" which is Christ.
-your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace--the gospel is the good news of Jesus Christ our Savior
-taking the shield of faith--where is our faith centered? In Christ.
-the helmet of salvation--where does our salvation come? From Christ.
-sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God--straight from John "In the beginning was the Word;" testifying of Christ

So, like, wow! God's armor is Christ. We are to put on Christ. Putting on the armor of God is Taking upon us the name of Christ, like the covenant says. WOW! It all fits together! Isn't it just amazing? Yup, the gospel is amazing.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Story Time

What a week! It was exciting. Really. Monday night I went to the Vienna Piano Trio Concert. It was at the U, and some smart person had scheduled some other big event at Kingsbury Hall at the same time as the Trio at Libby Gardner Hall. So there was no parking, anywhere. Ridiculous. Anyway, after driving around for a while I parked on some street and ran across a squishy field to get up there and I missed the whole first Sonata. The rest of the concert was pretty darn amazing, though! Super good!
. Tuesday I had the first rehearsal for the pit orchestra at LHS. THey told me they'd have a keyboard. But I didn't expect that that's all they would have! There was no pedal, amp, cable, or music stand to go with it! We found what we needed (no pedal, but I dealt with that just fine) but it was ridiculous. Also apparently everyone else had been given a contract. I never got one and so they better get me one soon!
. Wednesday we were supposed to film stuff for the show I'm directing. The wind was pretty bad so my boss cancelled filming about 20 minutes before it was supposed to happen. So I went back to the VBC and started working on piano festival stuff. Then it rained, and snowed, and I just sat on the floor counting checks to avoid driving home. Well, also because it needed to be done. I think it was after nine when I actually left, had to clear off the car but the roads weren't too bad anymore.
. Thursday I had to fight with the copy machine and get everything ready for the Piano people to do everything for the piano festival. We counted registration forms, scheduled competition times, scheduled practice times, changed stuff so siblings were closer together, addressed envelopes, wrote letters, copied repertoire, stuffed envelopes, combined family members into the same envelope (yes, after the fact), and ordered all the envelopes by zipcode. Would have been done right around 6 if I hadn't been called by someone in the planetarium telling me there were boy scouts there waiting for a show. I think THAT is what killed the last of my brain for the week. I had been checking the calendar every day to make sure there were no people listed as coming to the planetarium for a boy scout show. There were NO PEOPLE listed as coming! I even called my boss on Wednesday to make sure that if no people were listed that means I don't have to be there and she confirmed it. So I told the other guys we didn't have to be there at all and I told a professor he could use the planetarium and he calls me at 6 to tell me there are boy scouts there. Total freak out on my part. I'm trying to organize envelopes into families and then I have to call my boss and find out what to do, she gives me instructions but i can't exactly go over there, so now I'm calling people and texting people and oh man it was just bad. I still don't know what happened to them. I hope they found something fun to do in the museum or something and will get their show rescheduled all nicely. Then I didn't get my envelopes sorted but we had to wrap up so we put everything in a safe place and went out for food. Then I sorted envelopes by family on my own and went to institute super late. Hey, at least I went! After that I went to my BFF's house and we put the things in zipcode order and looked up wedding ideas and talked until like, 12:30.
. Friday I tried to get up early and read my assignment and take my quiz, and then the quiz was a fake quiz! Rude, right? Well, whatever. Class was all right but my brain didn't work. I almost forgot to go to band. But I went to HARBOR it made me smile. Then I practiced. I could have gone home b/c the other practice was cancelled but I didn't b/c my brain didn't work. And then even though I was there I missed half the recital I needed for my concert report because it started at 7. Nothing ever starts at 7! Oh well. That's not even everything that happened last week, but, it works! Somehow...

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Ways to Cope With Stress

-eat lots of chocolate
-procrastinate everything
-cry. multiple times.
-sleep, sleep, sleep!
-watch TV and movies (with friends--even better!)
-call people I haven't talked to for a while
-pray (should be higher on the list...)
-listen to music
-make random lists
-waste time on the internet

Thursday, February 10, 2011

incomplete to do list (to be done [mostly] in the next week)

-wait for final paperwork assembly
-sign and submit paperwork
-email planetarium videographer
-schedule filming times with videographer and actors
-film scout shows
-write more scripts for other scout shows
-write science olympiad tests
-find science olympiad event coordinator
-research public transit in Milwaukee and Chicago
-buy tickets and reserve hotel in Milwaukee (?)
-learn music for LHS musical pit orchestra
-play flute accompaniment up to tempo
-email piano people for scheduling
-schedule and carry out "the meeting" (nearly all-day event)
-write a neopolitan composition, a canon, and a 2-part invention
-not to mention practice the piano 3 hours every day

Saturday, February 5, 2011

nothing in particular

I don't have anything specific to say really, just random thoughts about random things that happen. I should get all the paperwork actually turned in to the government this next week. I bought a dress today. Chelsea came home Wednesday and we totally did stuff and I am so happy she's here again! Then I went to see Jamie for the first time also, since she came home last December! It's amazing what the gospel does. Tomorrow is fast Sunday. I've got a big reason and a bunch of other reasons too, I don't know what to focus on. I haven't exercised since my triathlon. I don't know what's going to happen this summer. It's hard directing a movie, I'd almost rather have someone else tell me what to do than me telling everyone what to do... depends on my mood I guess. I hope I'm not offending people again, that tends to happen without me intending it at all, every once in a while. I gave my Mars show today in front of a full audience and pulled it off all right with the changes I added. More random posts to follow.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Freedom of Religion

There are things I find odd about the United States. For a country founded on principles of religious freedom, to be more specific. Yes, a country founded on principles of religious freedom. Let me elaborate. We are taught in school that people came here to escape religious persecution. Now, take into account the first amendment to the constitution:

"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press, or the right of the people to peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."

I just read this and was surprised that the first thing mentioned is not freedom of speech, but freedom of religion. I realize it is referring to congress but I believe it should apply to all people. The free exercise of religion should not be infringed upon. What I see happening around me is that when someone decides to say something publicly about God or religion or his beliefs, there is an immediate uprising against him! You hear all this hubbub about "separation of church and state" and people not wanting to have other people's religions forced on them, but if you really think about it, what is happening is none other than RELIGIOUS PERSECUTION. If a person has a belief in God, he should have no reason to fear exercising it, even publicly. It is a CONSTITUTIONAL RIGHT. People fled to this country to escape religious persecution. How will we explain to our founding fathers in the next life that even this land of freedom became a place of persecution as well?

Saturday, January 1, 2011

What you probably HAVE been waiting for...

I will preface my post with this: I always dreamed I would be whisked away by a foreign man. I just didn't know how.

I could start from the beginning, but I don't know where the beginning is . . . it could be anywhere! So this could be a short story, or a long one. Hmmmm... I'll shoot for a happy medium.

I served a mission in Quezon City, Philippines, Sep '08-Mar '10. Sylves served there from Sep '07-Jul '09. So I suppose we saw each other at Christmas Conference '08 and a couple zone conferences in the Spring of '09. I don't remember him, we never talked or anything but everyone knew my name being the white sister who always played the piano :-). He says he kind of liked me and hoped there would be a way for him to contact me after my mission. Well, when I came home, there were millions of friend requests on Facebook from fellow missionaries and such. Since I could tell from his picture that he was from my mission I accepted his request.

That would have been April. Skip to August... I was on Facebook doing things for HARBOR and he starts chatting with me. It was surprising but not creepy. I knew what he was doing but it took me a long time to accept it. That time was filled with prayer, reading of the scriptures, meeting with my bishop, talking with my parents, reviewing my patriarchal blessing, and attending the temple. I knew Sylves was different. I had to visit him. That was my trip this past December. Everything worked out very nicely for it to happen.

Sunday, December 12: got up early, showered, ate breakfast, and was playing the piano in the time before church. Sylves came to sit by me and said he had something to give me. He had been telling me that but had led me to believe it wasn't the ring . . . well, it was! Since it was the sabbath day, it was already a special day, and he wanted to make it extra special for such a special girl like me :-) Well, yeah, he makes me feel pretty darn special and even until now I feel good about my decision to say yes. And it is a most definite YES. I know things will not be easy, not in the least, but I still feel good about it. A kind of peaceful feeling.

So the plans: 1. get him here ASAP (not a simple task what with the immigration process and all)
2. be married April 30 in a temple of our God
3. work in CA over the summer for his uncle who owns a restaurant there
4. finish school at WSU
5. go back to the Philippines (whisking away complete!)